Elena N. Marchini

Why, Mom? Why? You and the "family" have broken me in pieces I cannot get past this ultimate rejection and heartbreak. I wanted so badly to see you, hug you and "fix us." Why?

Mom, I miss you and wish we could have mended whatever the issue was between us...while you were still alive. I'm so sorry for not being at your viewing, but you passed away on August 8th, and I didn't find out until SEPTEMBER 2nd, when I Googled you to see if all was well, hoping to see you, to reconcile. WHY didn't you reach out to me?? If you had, I would have been by your side in a heartbeat. WHY, Mom? Imagine how it felt to see your OBITUARY almost one month later. I would have been there had I known, had SOMEONE reached out to me. You've been gone for 4 months now, and I still can't believe it. You HAD to know how much I truly loved you.

My dearest Mom, I STILL cannot believe I and my family were not even given the opportunity to see you again while you were still alive or to say goodbye when you passed away. I have never been so hurt by ANYTHING else in my lifetime. I have to write my thoughts here because I never got the PROPER chance to try to repair the rift between us, as much as I wanted to. I wanted to see you. I called you, I drove by your house. I just never found the nerve to knock on your door, because of how you pushed me away that last time we were together, at Uncle Adolph's viewing. WHAT did I do to make you hate me SO much that you told everyone "she better not show up" at Don's viewing?? WHAT did you tell the so-called "family" about me?? I was kept out of the loop for Aunt Yolanda, Aunt Rita, Aunt Lucy, Uncle Bobby, even Don. But the worst of all was not being told about my own MOTHER'S death, having to find out by reading it in an online obituary. That was very cruel. I am pretty sure you told them you didn't want me there. WHY?? I was never given the chance to defend myself against what were most certainly LIES. We had our differences, for sure, as most mothers and daughters do. But I was a good kid. I loved you, despite everything. I would never have done ANYTHING to deliberately hurt you, but if I HAD hurt you, you went to your grave harboring a hatred for me that I never understood and would certainly have tried to rectify...while you were alive. It's too late now, but maybe you're getting this message wherever you are now. The "family" hates me (and my husband and our children) but ... WHY?? WHY did you leave me and US this way?? The kids, especially, did nothing to deserve being tossed away. They watched me cry over you. If you had only reached out to ME, I would have been at your side in a heartbeat because I would have known that YOU wanted to see ME again. You hurt me by blaming ME for the awful things Sal did to me. You chose to believe a lying PEDOFILE over your own INNOCENT daughter. I was the victim, not the abuser, and HE was a pedophile. He told you terrible things, as I found out from a friend of YOURS who believed your lies until finding out the TRUTH. The "family" doesn't have a CLUE as to what I put up with, and yet ... NO one had the common decency to reach out to me. NOT ONE OF THEM. They ALL know what kind of daughter and person I was and still am. But I was hurt, Mom. Didn't ANYONE question WHY I had to go "NO CONTACT" with you???? I didn't want to, but I HAD TO. When I received the email saying "refusal for delivery by recipient" for DON'S birthday balloons I sent, I was at work and cried the rest of the day. Again, WHY?? That was January of 2009. We didn't speak after that, but when I saw you at Uncle Adolph's viewing later that same year, I went up to you, touched your arm and kissed your cheek. You bristled and pushed me away. I ran out crying and a couple of aunts came out after me. They KNEW. They ALL knew. THAT was the night my husband said "ENOUGH." Don had told him to keep me away from you because you were no good for me. But still I persisted. I loved you THAT much. I just wish we had fixed things. It is a terrible feeling to know that a COUSIN was there helping you when it should have been your only child, a daughter whom I once believed you really loved. How could I have been so wrong? NO one has ever hurt me this way. I am broken and will never be the same, having suffered the ultimate rejection from you AND the "family."

For this I am grateful, but that privilege was stolen from me, her daughter.

My Dearest Mom, I had to find out about your passing in the worst and most shocking way imaginable....from an online obituary. No one had the decency to reach out to me so I and your grandchildren could see you again. I will never understand that. Never. Our road was certainly not an easy one, but I have ALWAYS loved you, regardless of what you or anyone else thought. Not a day went by that I didn't think about you, my mother, missing you with every thread of my being. I don't know and probably never will know what caused the irreparable rift between us, but I DID try to reconnect with you. I even drove by your house, several times, wanting to knock on your door and talk to you. I was afraid you would push me away. Again. I will never have that chance now, and it saddens me. I had to write this because the weight is too heavy to not share it here. If anyone else should read this, know this: I loved my mother. To anyone who took care of her because I wasn't allowed to, for this I am gr

My dearest Aunt It has been a journey and I hope and pray I did you well. I’ll miss our calls, doctor appointments, visit at my mom’s , dinners, and lunch at the Folcroft Diner . It won’t be the same without you . Love you lots Ro

Aunt Elena was a warm and kind person who smile lit up any room that she entered. She will be greatly missed

Aunt Elena was a warm and kind person who's smile lit up any room that she entered. She will be greatly missed

Please accept our deepest condolences for your family's loss.